things that go THUMP in the night!

as you all probably know, in December we switched kendal into his crib because he really takes up a lot of room in our bed. i won't let him sleep "on the edge" and i don't like him in the middle (so he was getting half the bed and we had to share the other half). one thing that helped [me] with the switch is the AWESOME color video monitor we bought so we [i] can not only LISTEN to him sleep, but we [i] can watch him sleep. the monitor takes up less room in the bed than kendal so it worked out for all of us except for the fact that i didn't sleep because i watched him more than i slept. i didn't want to close my eyes and not see him. i used to hold the monitor in my arms all night and just stare at the tiny live video of kendal sleeping peacefully in his crib. over the past few weeks, though, i've gotten better about it. i don't hold the monitor anymore (usually), and i even click off the video part sometimes.


i do still keep the volume pretty loud because if ANYTHING should happen i want to hear it. it is so loud that i can hear the dull hum of the humidifier over 10 feet away. if the cat jumps in the crib, i want to be able to hear his paws hit the sheets. honestly, i obsess all night about hearing kendal breathe. (this obsession is based in the simple fact that my biggest fear in the world is that he will die... i'm scared to death of the SIDS.) so, i want to hear him breathe. i have to hear him breathe. if i can't hear him breathing, i watch the monitor to see his chest rising and falling. and if i can't see it on the monitor, i jump up and run in there, look at him, if i can't see his chest moving, then i put my finger under his nose to see if the air is warm. sometimes he is such a shallow breather that it really is hard to see him breathe. plus it is dark, so that makes it even harder. and occasionally, rarely, i actually lift and drop his arm until he stirs (to make sure he's alive). he sleeps hard like his daddy.

anyway, here lately i've awoken and surprised by this thump thump noise. at first, i thought it was the cat scratching the carpet or something, because it is really just a thump thump thump (like their nail is stuck in the fiber or something). so i'll look at the monitor and nothing is happening. hum... what could it be? sometimes he kicks a lot (which is loud), so i'll watch it to see if he is kicking. nothing, he is still and sleep as can be. so then i thought maybe the cat was in the rocking chair, which creaks. or maybe the cat is moving the door, which could creak, or playing with a toy under K's bed, which could make that thump thump noise.

but the cats are on the bed. so, what else could it be? i've walked in his room, even turned the light on trying to figure out what this noise was. but, it just doesn't happen while i'm in there. not a thump thump thump. UUGH! everyone knows monsters live under the bed and in the closet, what if it is the SIDS monster coming to get my baby?

well tonight, i heard the thump thump thump again. i looked at the monitor and it was still thumping. as a matter of a fact, it's been thumping a lot tonight. sometimes 8 or 9 times (not just 2 or 3). when i look at the monitor, he isnt' moving, the cats are on our bed, and i can hear the humidifier with no interruption to the hum. so what was it? i started thinking.

poot. poot. poot. poot.

that is what it is and has been all along. he is a sleep pooter. :)